Almost One.

Every time I look at you, you seem to be doing something new.

At the moment it’s all about asserting your authority. If I dare to take a ‘toy’ (something you’ve found e.g. a piece of plastic) off you then you like to make your feelings known about this betrayal often showing your disdain with clenched fists along with a scream. Getting frustrated that you can’t do all the things you’d like to just yet such as walking also elicits a good scream, and sometimes I have no idea why you are having a good scream. Sorry about that.

At 11 months old your level of understanding is obvious to me. Your interaction with your sister is different to how you interact with anyone else and this makes my heart swell in my chest with love. You won’t go far wrong with her on your side let me tell you. The way you look at me sometimes when other adults talk to you -it’s like we have our own understanding going on. I revel in these moments too because these are my little bonuses for being your no 1 person.

It’s all going so fast the months have almost blurred together I’m afraid. I couldn’t say exactly when you progressed through each new skill though I have been writing things down here and there along the way. There are so many new things you are learning with each week that passes. Usually when speaking to other mums it hits me how little time you have been on this earth, practising these skills.  This is what I said to you though wasn’t it – part of our secret conversations between me, you and the bleepy machines when you were born. I said listen to my voice, and keep practising all your baby things and I promised I would practise all my mummy things and we would bring them together when you were better. Which we did didn’t we and some days those early harrowing days seem like a lifetime ago, sometimes I am over taken with gratitude as my brain flits back to previous thoughts about how you might develop and what our future may look like together. Here we are with you, 11months old, throwing full on tantrums, happily breastfeeding (told you I’d take care of the mum things), waving na-nights to the family as we go up the stairs together and it’s just wonderful watching you grow.

How honoured I feel that God sent you and your sister to me. How the enormity of the potential mistakes I could make for you can almost make my breath catch in my throat. I watch a pretend show reel of your future life in my mind as I sway you to sleep some nights. Imagining you with your own family one day coming home for Christmas with your own children, and accomplishing all and any things you wish to, living a fulfilled and happy life until a very, very healthy old age. I can see your name written out in my mind’s eye and what you may look like at 5, 15, 18, 30. Just the same as I did when rocking your sister to sleep in my arms in those quiet small hours a few years ago.

11 months – almost crawling, vocabulary sounds becoming more varied, asserting what you want and don’t want very pointedly! Including arching when being put into pram or car seat. Painful teething – top two. Pushing up from tummy to sitting. Standing and stepping with support.

 

10 months – pincer grabbing (has this been longer I’m not entirely sure!) Interest in food you can hold, spitting food when you’re bored of being fed – yuk. Nipple biting! Ouch. Loving swimming! Brave soul. First Christmas! Waving. Clapping. High five.

9months – Enjoying baths. Everything still going straight in your mouth. Enjoying toys more. Getting around a room but not traditionally crawling. Mamma/Dadda.

8 months – Loving the wah wah game (hand to mouth). Eating, napping, jumper-roo-ing. Lost interest in dummy.

7 months – Sitting well. Eating well. Rolling. Loving singing group.

6 months – First tooth! (bottom one) Sitting -nearly stable. Rolling. Enjoying being carried everywhere.

    

 

0-5 months – Generally lying around getting introduced to the world! First smiles! Millions of things going on inside your brain I’m not aware of yet! 😉

I love you. Happy almost birthday! My big brave strong boy. xxxxxx

 

 

One Messy Mama
Mummy Times Two
Keep Calm and Carry On Linking Sunday
2017-02-19T17:20:09+00:00

12 Comments

  1. Ceri 31st January 2017 at 12:33 am - Reply

    Oh my goodness, this is so beautiful Kate. Your words are so heartfelt and evoke every emotion! Little Beb has come so far, he is flourishing and it’s a joy to watch! Celebrating every step with you! You’re doing an awesome job as Beb and Beg’s mummy! Excited to be celebrating Beb’s 1st birthday very soon! xxx

    • thehippychristianmum 31st January 2017 at 2:58 pm - Reply

      Thank you that’s such a lovely and kind thing to say xxx

  2. One Messy Mama 5th February 2017 at 8:06 pm - Reply

    One is such a fun age. It seems to go by so quickly; doesn’t it. What a lovely post… Thanks for sharing. #globalblogging

  3. One Messy Mama 5th February 2017 at 9:03 pm - Reply

    One is such a fun age. It seems to go by so quickly; doesn’t it. What a lovely post… That’s one adorable one year old! Thanks for sharing. #globalblogging

  4. Jemma 7th February 2017 at 4:01 am - Reply

    Such a fun age and so much more fun ahead! He looks a very happy thing! #postsfromtheheart

  5. Mummy Times Two 12th February 2017 at 2:51 pm - Reply

    I love this post so much, and given my little man is now just over ten months old, it relates a lot to our experiences. It even sounds that you, like us, had a scary start to your lives together. I think all of that early worry helps you appreciate the moments so much more…. though admittedly the nipple biting I could live without! Thank you so much for linking such a lovely post up to #PostsFromTheHeart

  6. HELEN NEEDHAM 19th February 2017 at 5:43 pm - Reply

    Such a lovely reflection on being almost one – such a great time to enjoy. Not long till the crawling turns to running, and you are running around trying to keep up. #kcacols

  7. Rachel George 19th February 2017 at 10:01 pm - Reply

    The early weeks turn into months so quickly and then it suddenly becomes a year. Next year will be even more fun! #KCACOLS

  8. Rainbows are too beautiful 20th February 2017 at 10:48 am - Reply

    Oh that is just beautiful. It all goes so quick and this will be lovely to re-read. Thanks so much for linking to #kcacols and hope to see you again next time.

  9. Nadine 28th February 2017 at 5:08 pm - Reply

    So sweet and beautifully written! You brought tears to my eyes. My littlest is 11 months too and it’s just gone too fast. I try to cherish every moment. Someone once told me hold them tight and cherish them because each day they are a little less connected to you from birth into adulthood. Helps me through the challenging days #KCACOLS

  10. Madeline (This Glorious Life) 1st March 2017 at 2:29 pm - Reply

    I can’t believe he’s nearly 1! Time really does go by so fast doesn’t it. Loved reading this, even if it made me a little emotional, there’s something really special about a mother’s love for her children.x #KCACOLS

  11. Kate Eccles 14th March 2017 at 11:36 am - Reply

    Such a lovely way to record your memories! Time goes by so fast. My youngest is 15 months and she is certainly a toddler now 🙂 #KCACOLS

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