Everything’s Rosy, Thanks!

Except the days when it’s not and I feel more like staff. The tired list of tasks on replay in my mind. Planning to spend time with my daughter when the baby naps. Wondering when the best time will be today to have a shower. Not speaking to another adult for an entire day. Being a stay at home mum should be easy, but sometimes it’s just hard.

Everything’s Fine.

Ask me how I am and I will say good, because things are good. My husband goes to work every day to a job he enjoys, he earns a good wage and I quit work 7 years ago to stay home and raise our kids. Together we’ve made a nice home, we have nice friends, we go to church every Sunday as a family. There is nothing ‘wrong’. I will tell you things are good because they are, and because I can’t quite put my finger on what isn’t.

 

 

Everything's Rosy, Thanks!

 

Homeschooling my 7yr old and caring for my 15month old baby means my days are busy and filled with the over-riding sense that not one of us is quite getting their needs fully met. If I’m singing with the baby my 7yr/o is watching YouTube. When I’m teaching my daughter, the baby is pulling my trouser leg for attention. When I’m cooking or cleaning, they’re both watching Peppa Pig. If there is any pause in the day I can guarantee it is some kind of meal time. Meals which take me time to make (and I hate cooking) then battle with my daughter to eat and at the end throw most of the food away anyway.

Feeling Valued

My list of tasks -usual stuff like laundry- conflicts with the real reason I’m home which is to spend time nurturing my kids. Chiding myself that I even want to waste time on the house while simultaneously feeling the most accomplished I have all week when it’s mess-free. Feeling resentful that such menial tasks are my only way of feeling valued. Breastfeeding a toddler to sleep whilst typing one handed.

Things are good, overall. But sometimes the day-to-day can get me down. It goes without saying that I am so grateful for my family. I thank God for them every day, lots and lots of times a day.

I don’t have much to moan about when my life’s biggest stressor is whether or not to brave the supermarket with two kids in tow. But I seem to have managed it anyway! There are much bigger things to worry about but sometimes it’s just harder than it looks from the outside looking in. I can kindly give myself the grace to say that is OK, and you can too.

Keep Calm and Carry On Linking Sunday

5 Comments

  1. 2nd July 2017 / 9:31 pm

    This is a lovely, honest post. I think we all feel that way. There are so many things you want to accomplish, to excel at, and most importantly to enjoy, but real life doesn’t allow you to do everything all the time. It’s good you’re forgiving yourself, and I need to remind myself to do so as well. #kcacols

  2. 4th July 2017 / 11:45 am

    I think most of us have felt like this at some point. I run my own business, but it’s just me, so I often don’t speak to another adult during the day! When I do meet up with a friend I feel awful as I can’t stop talking! Feel like I’m dominating the conversation – they have assured me I’m not! But feels that way, as I’m so excited to talk to them! I wish we could afford to hire a cleaner to stay on top of the house, I definitely have more important things to be doing, it feels so monotonous. #KCACOLS

  3. 7th July 2017 / 1:10 pm

    It’s so normal to feel like this sometimes and it’s wonderful that you have this brilliant blog to also vent some frustration. You sound like you are doing a wonderful job!:)
    Thanks so much for linking up at #KCACOLS. Hope you come back again next time
    Mainy

  4. 8th July 2017 / 11:07 pm

    Sounds like you are doing a brilliant job. I’m a stay at home mum to only one little girl and sometimes I feel like there’s not enough time in the day, so I’m in awe of anyone who manages to look after two children and homeschool one of them!

    I know exactly what you mean when you say that the day-to-day can get you down. I sometimes feel the same, and then I feel guilty for feeling that way because I know I’m lucky to be able to be at home with my little girl and I love her to pieces. I need to remember that it’s ok – even natural – to feel a bit fed up sometimes. #kcacols

  5. 14th July 2017 / 4:31 pm

    Juggling two is not easy but it’s fulfilling to see them grow and be nurtured. #KCACOLS

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